grrr. i have a story that would be totally awesome if i could actually write the beginning. boo. it seems like it would be fun to write a story with someone. i wish i could write books really easily. that'd be nice. mehhh but it doesn't work like that...you have to THINK about EVERYTHING like PLOTS and CHARACTERS and SO much STUFF.

all my book ideas are kinda depressing... well, not all of them. some of them. well, actually i only have like four and two of them are depressing. the outsiders and one of the others are just awesome. cuz telekinesis and smart people are awesome. yeah.

so the outsiders is going better now, since i actually started writing on it again. i revised/edited the first chapter. on to the next! i really hope to get it published when i'm done. i've worked out a bunch of it, but the middle is a little fuzzy. i even came up with more of a history on peter, and of course i changed his last name... i changed zaria's name too, she's now dana. and peter's last name is lucien. a lot of changes, but i really like how the first chapter turned out. i'll revise it again most likely, how ever many times it takes to make it the best. this feels so good, the feeling that i've actually got a book with a plot and CHARACTERS and everything! AHOY! it's the weirdest feeling, the feeling that i might actually succeed with this. people keep telling me that if i don't go to college, i'll never get published, but i don't believe that. since i am who i am, i practically CAN'T believe it. i wonder if misty and dj and savvy (yes, y'all XD) feel like this all the time. i mean, they seem to have no clue where the ice sword chronicles are going, or when they'll finish, but it's turning out really awesome. i hope my book comes out half as awesome as theirs. :)